Random Thoughts

We have our regular sleeping positions at night. Lia on my right and Rocco on my left. The three of us in bed while daddy Rolly catches his Zzzs on his own mattress on the floor.😅 This has been the setup since the day we brought Rocco home from the hospital. For years, it hasn’t been easy to get a sound sleep, with all 4 legs finding their way to my chest or face. Many times, I wake up with two extra heads (now bigger heads) on my pillow, kaya pala hindi ako makabiling.😂 At pinakamadaming beses, I would wake up with an aching body because unknowingly, nagpaka-contortionist pala ako the previous night to make way for the malikot bodies of my kids while sleeping.🤪

Pre-motherhood, I used to treasure my sleep. And to be honest, I miss sleeping soundly. But that’s nothing compared to the joy of having little warm bodies wrapped around me every single night.🥰 Tiny creatures fighting over whom I should hug in bed, to whose direction I will face before we close our eyes, which body will share the bigger blanket with me because all three of us can’t fit in one.🥲

I hope this stage can last forever. Nalulungkot na ako agad thinking that one day, Lia would already want to sleep in her own room. Or when Rocco outgrows snuggles with mommy. But until that day comes, I will enjoy every uncomfortable night, and every waking day with an aching neck or shoulder. Because truly, these are the best days — and nights — of my mommy life. 💖

Finding Myself in Motherhood

If there’s one change that has had the most powerful impact in my life, it’s becoming a mom. My world shifted 180 degrees and there’s no turning back. Suddenly, I was no longer the old me. I’ve become selfless and strong, sensitive but invincible, discovering things in myself that I didn’t know existed. Everyday, I find myself in a roller coaster of happiness and worry, delight and exasperation, energy and exhaustion. But despite the steep slopes and tight turns, I feel the purest kind of love and joy in my heart that no tantrum or meltdown can erase. Others say that you will lose yourself when you become a mom. I disagree. It’s in motherhood that I found who I was always meant to be.

#LiaSays

While working, my five-year old daughter walked up to me and I cupped her cheeks in my hands.

I said, "I love you."

In response, she cupped my face, too, and whispered,

"Me too. Even if you get mad at me sometimes."

I was moved.

There is really nothing as beautiful and pure as the heart of a child. 💕

Blessings

Everyday, make it a habit to count your blessings. Not just the big ones, but especially the little things usually ignored. Food on the table. Clean water. The smell of coffee. A bed to sleep in. The presence of family. Friends. A home. 

Name each blessing and you’ll find yourself in love with the life you have. Pay closer attention to the positive instead of the negative. To the highs instead of the lows. To the favors instead of the troubles. Pause, look around you, and choose to be genuinely grateful today. I tell you, it’s a wonderful, powerful feeling that will strum a lot of happy strings in your heart.

Right on Schedule

Do you like waiting? Maybe not. In a fast paced world like ours, we are hardwired to want everything now. Immediately. In an instant. When God asks us to wait for something important to us -- a child to be conceived, a promotion we feel is overdue, a painful trial to be over — time appears to stand still and we wallow in sadness, anxiety, and disappointment. But did you know? As you wait, God isn’t only getting things ready for you, He is also getting YOU ready for them. Let go and have faith. Trust that His timing is impeccable, not a moment early or late. Don’t worry, what is meant for you will come right on schedule. And when it’s finally there, you will know why the wait was necessary.